Creative Retreat

Isn't it funny how life alerts you when you've made a wrong turn? A sense of stalled-ness, a questioning, an almost-invisible feeling of discomfort...

I just bought my dream wedding dress. And I had already bought one.....Drat. I hate feeling like a bridezilla. I have the right priorities, I swear!

But all of a sudden, I no longer was interested in planning the wedding, I sort of put it on hold with the original dress, with the thought "In time, I will love..." or "After I lose the weight, I will feel fabulous in it..." or etc.

So then I started dwelling on why I was feeling 'wrong' about it. And it came to me - I picked it to please others, which is actually a damn good reason to pick something, unless it conflicts with your own personal needs. I wanted to pick the dress while my sister was here...I wanted to pick it while I had everybody sitting and waiting expectantly while I tried on dresses. And trust me, I picked the best of the best on that day. Everybody said it looked beautiful in me. And it was classic - I could see myself walking up the aisle in it. But it just wasn't a dress that I was excited to wear...Instead, it just kind of...worked well.

Then, I was browsing the Priscilla of Boston website, because they were going out of business, and came across a dream dress. And on 11/11/11, I felt the urge to call the salon and ask if they still had the sample dress. They had one. In my size. For...$111 dollars. Good news and bad news. Good: the price. Ironic for the date. A mark down from $4k. That is just CRAZY. Bad news: rip on the back. The organza overlay is ripped.

I had to go to the salon to try it on...I knew if I continued on with my life and went the practical route, I would wonder about the dress until I drove myself crazy. So I went. I tried it on. I twirled and smiled and relaxed and fell in love. I felt sexy and beautiful and comfortable and myself in the dress. And the attendant asked, "If you left, and someone else bought it....would it bother you?" And I bought it on the spot. I said yes to the dress!

I love Mom, Sarah, Diana, Mac, and everyone so much - Please forgive me for changing my mind, but I'm so happy!! I hope you love it as much as I do and know that you were there with me in spirit. I love you all so much.